As the fun and parties of the Christmas holidays and celebrations of the coming year came to a standstill I started thinking about what I have actually done these holidays and at a first thought I have done nothing – spent most days laying in my bed (feeling guilty for doing nothing) and procrastinating.
“Procrastination is the practice of carrying out less urgent tasks in preference to more urgent ones and thus putting off impending tasks to a later time, sometimes to the “last minute” before the deadline.”
Now I wouldn’t say that I left anything to the ‘last minute’ because if I am honest I didn’t have anything that needed doing in the first place. I feel that even though i really did nothing – I kind of deserved it, and I really enjoyed it! When you are in a complete cycle of getting up early, doing a hard day of school,studying, piano lessons, trumpet lessons, (working some days) and starting the cycle all over again it gets tiring. So tiring that I feel like I deserve this massive break in the holidays.
It is weird because sometimes it is hard even to enjoy the holidays because you have this constant impending countdown in the back of your head. 5 days left until school, 4 days left, 3,2,1 and then it starts again.
Now I am not saying that I don’t like school – nothing of the sort, in fact sometimes I love school. I love the feeling of leaving a lesson having learned (and understood) something and I love being able to spend time with my amazing friends. I even enjoy studying to an extent. Now before you think I am crazy let me explain!! It is hard to tell you how amazing I feel if I go to an exam hall and I sit down and I can think to myself – there is nothing more I could have possibly done to prepare for this test- that feeling is amazing. It is just when you don’t feel that.. When you feel that 2 more days of studying instead of going into the town with friends or wasting time on the laptop could have made all the difference, that is when i don’t like school, when I get the sense of failure.
And of course the worst possible thing about school – waiting for exam results – After a few weeks you forget the exam even took place and suddenly the teachers tell you that the results are next week and you start freaking out all over again.
Anyway, going back to the holidays at a first thought I really believed that I had nothing that I had done or discovered over the christmas break but thinking in more detail I have actually done a lot! – On christmas day all of my family came over and we had a delicious turkey dinner with loads of colourful veg all coated with gravy, we sat around the table and chatted and laughed the night away, it really was a great christmas. And then came along boxing day and we had the annual ‘Boxing Day Bash’ where friends of the family come over for a buffet and we played christmas quizzes – again, a night full of laughter!
And then.. My day at the beach which I made a post about recently – a day spent dipping my feet in the icy water and throwing rocks into the distance. – a day that I will remember for a very long time – for definite!!
Then comes along new years eve, something that my family don’t tend to celebrate after such a busy christmas, however I spent the night at my friends new years party where I got to know a lot of her family and again really enjoyed myself.
So as I am laying here in bed trying to remember if I actually did anything these holidays, the answer is YES!! I relaxed, took a break from the usual busy routine, spent time laughing with my family and friends and over all really enjoyed it! And that is what it is all about!